Awwww. Boys are so sweet.

This sweet boy sent me an email apologizing for not having the time or money to call me lately so to make it up to me I asked him to jot down some of my best qualities. I'm hoping this is just the rough draft, but I figured he would want to see his words in print.




Here are some random thoughts I wrote just now:

In the days following our conversations, I find her words echoing in my
mind, altering how I feel and who I am in the direction of her choosing.

She helped me face the fact that every girl I've ever dated cheated on me
left and right, and to understand exactly why, even using their full names
(including middle names!) to hammer it home.

She provided an objective and critical view of my anatomy which has left me
feeling completely horrible about myself, and fully agreeing with women's
negative appraisal of what I have and what I am.

I now realize that my chronic masturbation isn't just a phase, but a life
condition. Thanks to Autumn, I'm now trying to cope with this reality.

Autumn is easily the cleverest girl I’ve ever had the pleasure of speaking
to. What she isn’t is nice. Instead, she’s used her intelligence and
creativity to methodically and very sadistically dismantle my psyche,
rearranging it in a way that amuses her while crippling me. I’ll never be
“okay” again, and I don’t want to be. All I want is for Autumn to chop me up
into even finer pieces.

These are just some of the wonderful things Autumn has done to me.

Autumn is everything to me, I'm nothing to her, and this is as it should be.


Love Always,
Totally Into Men

Vacation!

I'm going to be taking an awesome vacation next week. I know it makes my boys very sad when I'm away, but sometimes I need to take a week away for some fun and fucking. I do always come back with awesome stories, don't I? I'm planning on having lots to share.
If you'd like the dates, the night of March 27th until April 4th. I'll be around Thursday and Friday of this week if you'd like to play before I jet.

Panty Funtime!

Of course I *love* sexy panties. I enjoy all kinds really. Lace, satin, boyshorts, bikini, hipsters and pretty much everything in between. Well not thongs. I've never really gotten into those. That, however, is not my point.
My point is, lately I've become really fascinated with white cotton panties. I only have one pair and I don't wear them as often as I should. I found them at the bottom of my delicate's drawer the other night and decided I should put them on. They felt SOOOO fantastic. Comfy and sexy and innocent all at the same time. They reminded me of when I was much much younger and used to lay in my bed at night and silently rub my pussy to orgasm getting them all wet and sticky. I'd wake up and they'd still be all warm so of course, I'd get myself off again. I'd have to be super quiet since other people were sleeping in the rooms next to me.
Now that I'm older I like to do other naughty things with my unmetionables. Since I've rediscovered my love of soft, white, cotton panties I might have to do a little research on what they can do with and to a big hard dick.

slutling's apology and email of devotion

Recently one of my dear boys made not one, but two mistakes. Make a note, subbies: ladies don't like it when you address them by another girl's name. In order to win back my favor I nicely asked for an email highlighting some of my better qualities as well as a small tribute.

**Dearest Princess Goddess Mistress Autumn**
First of all I want to thank You for Your willingness to take me on for ongoing
long-term training as a lil slutling to serve You and be guided and trained under
Your perfect hand. Additionally I want to thank You for being coming up with
something that was well thought out and fair for slutling to do in order to pay for
his misdeed of wrongly addressing You as this helps slutling know he is under a
Princess Goddess that is going to lovingly guide him through his training and not
take advantage of him. Trust is such an important component of his servitude.
I am actively working on acquiring Your tip and will get this to You as soon as
possible. I would like to express per Your request why slutling would like to serve You Princess Goddess Autumn.
As a sensual submissive into teasing and denial I have had the opportunity to be the
subject of playful teasing and torture by many but rarely does a lil slutling like
myself EVER truly connect with someone that I feel like intuitively knows how to
interact with me and mildly mindfuck and toy with me keeping me EVER on the edge
teasing and denying and torturing me in a loving way. Yet I have to confess I have
NEVER had a bad experience with You either on the phone or merely chatting online.
You seem to ALWAYS know just what to say and do with slutling and how to toy and
tease with him. You come across so playful and easy to communicate with. You
seduce me so easily and make me want to serve You and please You and do what it is
You desire to do with me bringing a smile to Your face. And when that magical
moment happens it is so gratifying. It is an amazing experience for a lil subbie
like myself to be under a perfect princess like You who gets me and pulls that perfect level of servitude out of me. You warm me and make me smile and yet You aren’t afraid to take me down low into that perfect subspace where You have complete control over me. And when that firmness comes out and You force me to slap or spank my balls while at the same time hovering over the edge of cumming without dare leaking then slut feels Your power over him. And when that happens it’s the most maddeningly delicious thing in the whole world!
So when I even think for a moment I might have the chance to be under Your hand for
a mere minute out of any given day or if I’m given an assignment or any semblance of
direction or guidance by You it can be the most amazingly erotic thing EVER!
Now, on to the public apology – there came a time when playing with the girls of
Your Desires (You, Rachel, Bella, Laura, and Molly) became the norm for a little
while. And slutling was being batted around like a like toy mouse by wickedly
delicious little kitties. Slutling’s mind became dizzy and foggy trying to keep up
with the demands upon him. During this time I on more than one occasion, mistakenly
directed IM replies to You, when trying to respond to the demands of Miss Rachel.
This was not only INEXCUSABLE but it hurt Your feelings Princess Goddess Autumn.
And the mere thought of hurting Your feelings in and of itself was what nearly did
slutling in as he ONLY longs to please You…
So please Princess Goddess Mistress Autumn know how humiliated and humbled and
broken slutling is for having hurt Your feelings and he begs Your forgiveness at
every turn. I write this now as part two of two of a penance assignment You have
given me (part one of two being a tribute). So please know how sorry and regretful
slutling is for having fucked up. You bring me low once again and remind me of my
place before You low and at Your perfect feet ever ready to serve and do Your
bidding with focus and attention. Slutling should NEVER for any reason lose focus
and do something so foolish again!
Please help me learn to focus and become the perfect lil slut for You!
Respectfully & Obediently Yours,
Princess Goddess Mistress Autumn’s slutling
xoxo